the sheer joy of falling and staying in love

Standing at the patio you looked breathtakingly charming but what made me notice you first was the look in your eyes when you were staring at me. No idea what did you feel or what did you do next but I clearly remember. 

April 14 1996 On the  auspicious ocassion of Vishu, I first saw you staring at me with all your charm, when I got down of the car. The next thing I did was to run up home, before doing so, on my way up, from the corner of the eye, I tried to catch a glimpse of you - to only check if you were looking at me still and you were and you had that smile on your face- a smile of welcoming. 

I so much wanted to see you again, no idea why. I had to my heart was beating in a weird manner. And I just had to catch a glimpse of you. Can’t remember 24 years later that what excuse I would have made to my mom to come in the balcony and catch a glimpse of you. With all the possible shyness and with a look in my eyes as if I found someone, I tried looking at the direction that you were standing but you weren’t there. 

Who were you and how have I missed seeing you before. No idea and from then on it was a string of excuses to catch a glimpse of you again. Why??? No clue but I had to see you again. 

On that special day gods were surely smiling at me ....What was it about our look.....years later I realised....it was the look in your eyes on seeing me, the admiration that you were throwing at me. I was probably falling in love. Or was I already in love. When will I get to see you again. 

YOur first look of love ...

Was God around that day 

He surely must be

Isn’t it the same look that took my breath away. 

Today’s kids wonder....just one look,

 love at first sight? 

Will they ever know or understand 

Back then The madness in our hearts and our plight